The panic returns

5am and I'm up from a god forsaken panic attack. This hasn't happened since about September.... Fucking hell!!!

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The Death of a Stalker

In truth, I can't feel that bad for her. Originally Aris tried to get me to feel bad for her as this poor transgendered woman who can't come out of the closet and he's trying to rescue her to garner my sympathy... Then a professor snapped me out of it when she saw I was [...]

Community Status

It's amazing to walk into work and everyone is all "Hey, Carol!" "Carol, how's it going?" "Morning Carol! We still up for game night?" Even customers are all "how did you get into work? You need a ride home? How's Syrus doing?" Slowly, but surely, community is working its way into my life, and I [...]

New Moon in Aquarious

With the new moon approaching, I should make a list of ceremonies to conduct. Some resources have said the new moon in Aquarious is an excellent time for finding your twin flame, where other sources say this is great for grounding yourself since emotions won't be running around and determination will be present. It's an [...]

Blending Experiences

Yesterday I did the Hecates ceremony and a tarot reading with a few simple questions with powerful results. Before the Hecates ceremony I caught myself in a religious state I hadn't experienced in a long time... But the emotion was strong and intense. Whenever I prayed to God as a Seventh-day Adventist Id always end [...]

Wicca, Hecate, and Healing

It's amazing how messages keep affirming, reaffirming, and building upon themselves. I'm currently working out of a book called "Hands of light; a guide to healing through the human energy field." One of the messages it talked about what receiving messages for healing, and the only way for that to happen is to connect with [...]