Catching Up

This month has been filled with up's & down's since I became homeless, but I'm surviving. Today I finally got my ass in gear and applied to about 15 different positions that are full time and range between mental health & travel agencies, spreading between the Seacoast and Concord. At this point, I refuse to [...]

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Blending Experiences

Yesterday I did the Hecates ceremony and a tarot reading with a few simple questions with powerful results. Before the Hecates ceremony I caught myself in a religious state I hadn't experienced in a long time... But the emotion was strong and intense. Whenever I prayed to God as a Seventh-day Adventist Id always end [...]

On Holy Ground

I remember a ceremony we use to do in the church called on holy ground, and is perhaps the basis of community healing and narritive therapy that I know. There was a blanket Miss Elizabeth would provide, and everyone would sit around the blanket, tucked into its warmth and security... Then slowly... One by one... [...]

I Love You, and I am Listening

Place one hand over your heart, and the other over your stomach. Breathe deeply for just a minute, and say to yourself "I love you, and I am listening". What was the impact? I was doing a guided meditation and was promoted to do this, noticing my internal reactions... It was strange to me. A [...]

You’re Not Being Abandoned

To My Younger Self, The one whose wounded... The one whose scarred... The one who's afraid you're going to be unloved the whole of your life... It's okay. I'm working on us. They aren't your parents, they aren't your family, and it's my job to heal your wounds and let you know that.  I'm sorry [...]

Practicing Loving Kindness

I need to remember everyone is struggling with something, and not just struggling, but deeply. With this context, I can (hopefully) reduce some of the internal tension I feel when doing the loving kindness mantra. I feel the positive energy when I send it to all beings, and its strongest at that point; I wish [...]

A Slave to Control

I'm either an enabler who can't say anything or a control freak for opening my mouth - that's how I feel. I feel trapped over the stupidest shit, and in the end I know it's because I use control to prevent anger outbursts because that's the defective wall I hide behind versus saying I'm vulnerable, [...]

My Dearest Nightmare

Day 1 To My Dearest Love, Forgive me if I don't know where to begin - I'm afraid my thoughts and feelings fall and scatter before me like a summer rain; I welcome and observe with a sense of melancholy what lays before me, but try as I might, I cannot catch them all. I [...]

Another Coworker Dream

I don't remember much of the dream... just the feeling I got at one particular time. There is a guy I work with who, as it turns out, is into anime, video games, and has his own band. Well, the other day (in real life) we got paired up with one another to work on [...]

To my fans, followers, and humanitarians

Hello Everyone!While normally I use this site to record my dreams, as well as talk about the occasional life event every now and then, this post is about living your dreams. Specifically, I was accepted into my Masters degree program for Mental Health Counseling. My dreams is to one day be able to open my [...]