Hope, Deceit, and Karmic Energy

This week has been more fluctuating than the stock market during bush era. The most pressing issue on my plate was what I was sprung with last night... The guy I was FWB with, Chris, made it seem like trying to get back together with his girlfriend in Vermont was on a down spiral and [...]

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Adventures in EMDR Part 3: Decoding What Crazy Means (All Aboard)

About an hour has passed since I came out of therapy. The healing mind is still attempting to nurture me with messages that present an authentic level of self-compassion that feels new to me on some level, as the focus of this session was to pick a sentence associated with multiple memories of varying levels [...]

Differentiating the Demon from the Man (The Succubi Addiction & Codependency Factor)

Today I've had a veil over my eyes - the hypnotic melodia of my sex drive wanting to rear it's tiny little head out, but instead hijacking my imagination and lulling me back to the fantasy of a man I thought I once knew and loved. This is the experience of addiction, chasing the next fantasy [...]

Adventures in EMDR Part 1: The Athame turned on it’s end

I'm drawn to think of Pia Mellody and love addiction.... the process of overusing imagination as a dream world for escape. I'm amazed in truth that Keri was able to take what I thought was a weapon of destruction and use it as a tool of healing so suddenly. The Athame, the magical sword on [...]

From the Edge of the Cliff

  Yesterday morning I was riding on the bus and ready to cry.... Then I got to the coffee shop ready to cry... Then I got into work ready to cry... I just don't get it. How is it when I make space for myself to cry it doesn't happen, but right when I don't [...]

Beauty Towards the Bottom of the Well

After my coffee shop venture this morning I swing by wild mind meditation shop to see if they had anything available I could use to connect with my grief... Found out about this amazing meditation app that you can use and see who's meditating anywhere in the world - beautiful. Still, I didn't get what [...]

Hearts & Wander

Fear not, for I have dreams to share, but I thought I'd also give my readers an update. My laptop is dead which is why I haven't posted anything in forever. I rely on my phone to let me know whats going on in the interwebz, but thats all I have. Until then I cannot [...]

Stressed & Fearful

I remember dreaming about Facebook. I was afraid Lydia LaJewel was on my other, more offensive Facebook was in my friends list. I was afraid and stressed she was seeing all the inappropriate jokes I post and telling everyone about it at the church. I began to panic a little and finally the dream faded [...]

A House on the Water

I'm trying to uncover something... something bad I think, as if I were on a mission of some kind, but my memory fails me; I know it's contingent on the previous dream. I pull over in my sleek little sporty car with the top down and come upon this gorgeous 2 story home that's up [...]