Adventures in EMDR Part 3: Decoding What Crazy Means (All Aboard)

About an hour has passed since I came out of therapy. The healing mind is still attempting to nurture me with messages that present an authentic level of self-compassion that feels new to me on some level, as the focus of this session was to pick a sentence associated with multiple memories of varying levels [...]

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Differentiating the Demon from the Man (The Succubi Addiction & Codependency Factor)

Today I've had a veil over my eyes - the hypnotic melodia of my sex drive wanting to rear it's tiny little head out, but instead hijacking my imagination and lulling me back to the fantasy of a man I thought I once knew and loved. This is the experience of addiction, chasing the next fantasy [...]

Adventures in EMDR Part 1: The Athame turned on it’s end

I'm drawn to think of Pia Mellody and love addiction.... the process of overusing imagination as a dream world for escape. I'm amazed in truth that Keri was able to take what I thought was a weapon of destruction and use it as a tool of healing so suddenly. The Athame, the magical sword on [...]

Tales of a Tarot Reader Pt. 1

About 2 or 3 weeks ago I started my own pagan consult business, but it's mostly paid tarot readings. I sat at the computer, typed up a flyer, printed out 10, and on the second hand-out at 5 monkeys tattoo, the woman was like "Oh my god, you do tarot readings? You have time to [...]

The Karma Carrier

I'm more or less reposting this article for self-reflection, as I seem to strongly feel this applies to me and would like to dig a little more.... recently I've wanted to do a very technical spell to cut the Karma chord with my mother, since I can't help but feel in part that the circumstances [...]

Catching Up

This month has been filled with up's & down's since I became homeless, but I'm surviving. Today I finally got my ass in gear and applied to about 15 different positions that are full time and range between mental health & travel agencies, spreading between the Seacoast and Concord. At this point, I refuse to [...]

Soul Baring

Why does falling for someone have this weird obsessive intensity to it? For the past couple of days I find myself wanting to lie in bed and think of him... Endless sarcasm, deeper connections, too many positions and bedroom games that I've rehearsed before I've ever laid a finger on him.  Thankfully he likes me [...]

Alone in a Coffee Shop

I'm surprised, geniunley shocked that I have alone time before work to write this morning. Having a car back has been bliss, and I've bought so many reading materials it's gonna take a while to get through them all - from 365 ways to raise your vibration, to the artists ways creativity cards & her [...]

Allowed to be Angry

In full swing I have been pissed at Kylie, and rather than possibly projecting my inner child onto her, I'm not allowing guilt to conflict with my ability to utilize my anger as a tool for boundary setting. I made it absolutely clear that if she's comfortable trashing the kitchen floor so everyone has to [...]

The Death of a Stalker

In truth, I can't feel that bad for her. Originally Aris tried to get me to feel bad for her as this poor transgendered woman who can't come out of the closet and he's trying to rescue her to garner my sympathy... Then a professor snapped me out of it when she saw I was [...]