Differentiating the Demon from the Man (The Succubi Addiction & Codependency Factor)

Today I've had a veil over my eyes - the hypnotic melodia of my sex drive wanting to rear it's tiny little head out, but instead hijacking my imagination and lulling me back to the fantasy of a man I thought I once knew and loved. This is the experience of addiction, chasing the next fantasy [...]

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Adventures in EMDR Part 1: The Athame turned on it’s end

I'm drawn to think of Pia Mellody and love addiction.... the process of overusing imagination as a dream world for escape. I'm amazed in truth that Keri was able to take what I thought was a weapon of destruction and use it as a tool of healing so suddenly. The Athame, the magical sword on [...]

The Death of a Stalker

In truth, I can't feel that bad for her. Originally Aris tried to get me to feel bad for her as this poor transgendered woman who can't come out of the closet and he's trying to rescue her to garner my sympathy... Then a professor snapped me out of it when she saw I was [...]

The Smallest Connection

To be human is to grieve, because if we grieve we are in touch with the swelling of emotions that make us so complex, the glue that permanently connects the puzzle pieces and fragments that make us human compared to the clinical diagnosis that seeks to pull us to pieces for fragmented labels of understanding. [...]

My 2017 Tarot Spread

I did my first ever Tarot reading today, and it was amazing! I asked what the year had in store for me based on the areas the spread provides, and after a good deal of time spent reading the meaning of the cards and interpreting them, this was what I had. Aries: Persona - The [...]

Family Drama and the Best Man

Im in Boston or some other huge city trying to avoid my grandparents, Angie, Ashley, and Danny; I have no prob running into Ryan. I seem to recall being in a mall at first, but then it transitions into the city. Architecture and landscaping looks familiar only to me because I've been here before in [...]

Who Do I Want To Be

Who do I want to be? The truth is I thought I had it all figured out... Mapped, planned, carefully considered based on "who I am", but I don't know who I am anymore, and as a result, I'm uncertain of who I want to be. I've lost my drive for schooling, and with so [...]

New Moon Ceremony

Last night I conducted a rebirthing spell; considering all the work I've done towards healing it felt appropriate to do so - acknowledge the insights I've gained, what's being cast aside, and where I'm going.... At least, where I hope I'm going.  Closing the ceremony it was a little difficult to ground my energy, but [...]

The Context of Intimacy

I feel like a manipulative asshole! I wasn't trying to BE manipulative, I was just blind to what was going on... Where I have a hard time understanding intimacy apparently, I have to wonder to what degree it exists outside the realms of a romantic relationship - was I asking for too much, or is [...]

The Chasm Exands

Working out of the "love yourself, heal your life" workbook, I feel that chasm again... The expanding of my chest to create space, but the more I feel that space the more I recognize what currently fills that space, and the longing that it calls for. It calls for me to love myself, but also [...]