I’d dream of you again

For the first time in ages I found myself dreaming of a forlorn friendship of ages past with no chance of redemption. I don't know why my dreams would draw me back to him, but it was comforting to see him again. Inevitably he stopped talking to me at the end, and I remember holding [...]

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Transition

Wednesday marked my good-bye too Hannaford; almost made it to the 2 year mark, but I realized I'm losing money working there compared to doing Uber. Yesterday I managed to get the last of the money I needed to pay my phone bill before it's disconnected, and as a result, I'm finally in a position [...]

Addiction, blogs, and the mental element

Tired beyond belief in mind, body, and soul, I turn to my primitive mind engaging in old fantasies of the past that I entertained in my youth, consumed by lust, and the need to be loved. There's something about the emotional brain that's amazing and corruptive when left unchecked, but I find it essential at [...]

The Death of a Stalker

In truth, I can't feel that bad for her. Originally Aris tried to get me to feel bad for her as this poor transgendered woman who can't come out of the closet and he's trying to rescue her to garner my sympathy... Then a professor snapped me out of it when she saw I was [...]

Blending Experiences

Yesterday I did the Hecates ceremony and a tarot reading with a few simple questions with powerful results. Before the Hecates ceremony I caught myself in a religious state I hadn't experienced in a long time... But the emotion was strong and intense. Whenever I prayed to God as a Seventh-day Adventist Id always end [...]

Family Drama and the Best Man

Im in Boston or some other huge city trying to avoid my grandparents, Angie, Ashley, and Danny; I have no prob running into Ryan. I seem to recall being in a mall at first, but then it transitions into the city. Architecture and landscaping looks familiar only to me because I've been here before in [...]

Synonymous

Love is terrifying. In one of those free-association activities in the love yourself heal your life workbook, I recognized my own apprehension to answer certain sections... They have one on men, women, sex, money... Then love. I did the one on love and out of nowhere I donged on me... love is terrifying. Then the [...]

My Dearest Nightmare

Day 1 To My Dearest Love, Forgive me if I don't know where to begin - I'm afraid my thoughts and feelings fall and scatter before me like a summer rain; I welcome and observe with a sense of melancholy what lays before me, but try as I might, I cannot catch them all. I [...]

Flesh Eaters

Man I hate my scarab dreams. I't been YEARS since I've had one, but because of this, I remember the contrasting outline between now & then. I'm in a school of some kind with a mixed range of students from middle school and up. I dont entirely remember how it happened but I'm pretty sure [...]