Clothes

I walk into what is at first a target with Aris and Sy to do some shopping I suppose... no real idea why we're there. Aris runs off to the right to pay off his card real quick while I'm left there holding a much more complacent child than usual. I start wandering around and [...]

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It’s been forever, but just beginning. Happy New Year 2015

Well, here we are... it's New Years Eve 2014, and what a year it's been. I've gone though a 5k race, a car accident, moving, failing a course for the first time, graduating with my bachelors despite the failure, starting my masters, going to therapy, and bridging the gap between me and my ex. For [...]

I hate my life

Please forgive the stero-typical teenage drama-feasting title, but I have been plagued by anxiety, stress, depression, and tears, and I was hoping it was PMS but it's not. It's life. I can't stand it. 1) I hate being a single mother Let me make it known that I don't hate being a mom. I love [...]

Speak

For the past two days I've had so much to say... so much I want to say. The problem was A) I get a whole blog typed and it doesn't save before it gets lost (thanks wordpress) or I just didn't have the time. Yesterday I was so mad.... so mad. The controlling fragment of [...]

A Boy Named Felix

I fell in love with a boy named Felix; he's not quite a man, but a boy who's 20. He was shy, sensitive, quiet, and cute - but after a while he's quite funny too. I was in "my" home that was somewhat different, and a few of my family and their friends I'd never [...]

Negativity

It started off with my ex. It's fragmented at this point, but I remember being very angry at him. I remember him hitting on me, and my skin crawled. I was on the outside looking in, trying to warn some woman about how bad he was - but she didn't listen. He was manipulative and [...]

Yangtze Restaurant

I'm working at yangtze again. I walked in looking for a job app, and Moe hired me on the spot. Strangely enough I was already wearing the black and white attire. Customers start pouring in and I'm taking orders like I use to. Katie and Heather were there from old, but Aris was now working [...]

Digging in my Closet (Dreams from May)

Hey guys, So I was looking through some old documents on my computer trying to find a phone number, when I had totally forgotten I had a dream folder I started in May, prior to starting this blog. I figured I share them with you. I dont remember the one with my ex, but I [...]

Let’s Play Hide and Go Fuck Yourself

I'm shopping at walmart with my brother Jamie and my friend Joe Bailey. We're in the lawn and garden area (which has now turned into the Christmas warehouse) when we decide to play  hide and seek. I come around the corner of one of the isles and Jamie manages to scare the crap out of me with [...]

Lost in Boston

I was in Boston to go to some unknown museum with my son Syrus, mom, my brother Jamie, and my ex/son’s father Aris. His most recent psycho fucking ex Kai ended up showing up out of nowhere, because anime Boston was probably going on, and he wanted to ditch us for her. Aris initially dumped Syrus on me and took off wandering [...]