Synonymous

Love is terrifying. In one of those free-association activities in the love yourself heal your life workbook, I recognized my own apprehension to answer certain sections... They have one on men, women, sex, money... Then love. I did the one on love and out of nowhere I donged on me... love is terrifying. Then the [...]

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My Dearest Nightmare

Day 1 To My Dearest Love, Forgive me if I don't know where to begin - I'm afraid my thoughts and feelings fall and scatter before me like a summer rain; I welcome and observe with a sense of melancholy what lays before me, but try as I might, I cannot catch them all. I [...]

History Doesn’t Repeat Itself – It Only Rhymes

This is just killinng me now ` So my first dream was almost the same thing as yesterday; literally. Only differences were it was fragmented and a everything looked tiled in the end just like a mosaic, with blurred red, orange, pink, and gold hues. Still, I was desperate for my son. THEN I had [...]

Dream Analysis Part 2: Role Playing Adventurer

All of this is a reference to Dream Analysis Part 1: Role Playing Adventurer, and my dream entitled Role Playing Adventurer. If you wish to get a better understanding of what I'm talking about, start with the dream, and come back to this. In the beginning I recognize I’m a heroine collecting perks, upgrades, treasures, [...]

Teachers of Revenge

I'm going to school, and the school itself has changed. It's a fusion of my college and my son's elementary school. Sy has daycare at "our" school now, and its a woman who looks almost the same as his primary teacher, along with a few teachers aids. After I've dropped him off in the classroom [...]

Autumns Passage of Time

I’m at the SDA church one crisp autumn afternoon. The sun is high in the sky and theres a lot of hustle and bustle. It’s  something thats never really happened before, so it must not have been a Sabbath day. I was 14 because the bachelder girls were there, and they were all quite young. [...]

I Dream of Fears

Lately I’ve had few and fleeting dreams. I remember but glimpses into my unconscious mind. I dream of fears. I dreamt my brother scolded me and made me feel like an awful parent. In real life my brother commented how my son doesn’t seem to nap much at present, and it’s true. I leave my son in [...]

Death by the Joker: Nightmare

FINALLY IT WORKS! I’ve been trying to get a fucking blog up and WordPress is so good at making it NOT work for me! I bring up the page, it loads, and it wont let me type anything. You’re lucky my love for you has become an addiction or I’d rape your programmable ass. The other big error I [...]

Arachniphobia

Thinking back as long as I can remember, I have always had this awful fear of spiders. Prior too living in Florida, I dont remember being so afraid of them, but it’s awful. There were two massive banana spiders (aka: tarantulas)that had spun a web and lived by the shed. They are black and yellow [...]