Addiction, blogs, and the mental element

Tired beyond belief in mind, body, and soul, I turn to my primitive mind engaging in old fantasies of the past that I entertained in my youth, consumed by lust, and the need to be loved. There's something about the emotional brain that's amazing and corruptive when left unchecked, but I find it essential at [...]

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Alone in a Coffee Shop

I'm surprised, geniunley shocked that I have alone time before work to write this morning. Having a car back has been bliss, and I've bought so many reading materials it's gonna take a while to get through them all - from 365 ways to raise your vibration, to the artists ways creativity cards & her [...]

Reconnecting with the past

   Recently I've been working out of Pia Mellodys work on facing love addiction, and it separates how codependent addicts are split into 2 categories: the love addict, and the love avoidant. Love addicts cling at the hip where love avoidants fear that intimacy, but desperately crave it. As the patterns unfolded before me for [...]

My Dearest Nightmare

Day 1 To My Dearest Love, Forgive me if I don't know where to begin - I'm afraid my thoughts and feelings fall and scatter before me like a summer rain; I welcome and observe with a sense of melancholy what lays before me, but try as I might, I cannot catch them all. I [...]

The dream of annoying betrayal

During an afternoon nap I took, I had an awful dream. I'm sitting on the couch with Elizabeth having a conversation about my sons school. They switched up his daily progress reports to a piece of paper with check marks and comments. I tell elizabeth about this and how its not the same thing as [...]

Rushing Waters

I'm with someone at a brook in the middle of the woods - not sure who he is but I trust him. I decided I was thirsty and needed to get a drink. "In the middle of the woods, the water must be pure" I thought. The guy thats with me tells me not too [...]

Embracing One Another

I was traveling with a large group of SDA friends, former SDA friends, and random people from SDA academies that I didn't know. We ended up at this indoor camp retreat - much like natures classroom. The room we're in is a half-moon shape with boards of wood angled just so to make the curve [...]

Happy New Year: My Year in Review

This is my once-a-year summary to reflect on all that I've been through and the changes that I have made. If I had to summarize my year to one word: progress. I'm so happy to see it, and there's much more to come. For now here's what I have to reflect on: Education: I OFFICIALLY [...]

Forever in your Debt

The first part of my dream is hard to remember, consisting of varying elements. The second half is MUCH clearer, and I HAVE to work through it with dream analysis. Part 1: My ex was in my dream. We talked about something and I know I got pissed. Eventually he left and I went and [...]

I Grieve

I was with a large group of random people... some of them church members, some of them my little sisters friends from school.... but we were all at a theme park heading towards the next ride. I ran into Peter and Adam while we were all walking. Peter momentarily says hi, so I politely do the same... [...]