Blending Experiences

Yesterday I did the Hecates ceremony and a tarot reading with a few simple questions with powerful results. Before the Hecates ceremony I caught myself in a religious state I hadn't experienced in a long time... But the emotion was strong and intense. Whenever I prayed to God as a Seventh-day Adventist Id always end [...]

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On Spirituality & Self

I suppose the need for control comes from the inability to forgive... If I could forgive, I wouldn't need to have so many walls up... What would it look like to forgive? What would it look like to forgive myself? Forgiveness and "letting go" go hand-in-hand... I don't know what I'm doing or how to [...]

Who Do I Want To Be

Who do I want to be? The truth is I thought I had it all figured out... Mapped, planned, carefully considered based on "who I am", but I don't know who I am anymore, and as a result, I'm uncertain of who I want to be. I've lost my drive for schooling, and with so [...]

New Moon Ceremony

Last night I conducted a rebirthing spell; considering all the work I've done towards healing it felt appropriate to do so - acknowledge the insights I've gained, what's being cast aside, and where I'm going.... At least, where I hope I'm going.  Closing the ceremony it was a little difficult to ground my energy, but [...]

On Holy Ground

I remember a ceremony we use to do in the church called on holy ground, and is perhaps the basis of community healing and narritive therapy that I know. There was a blanket Miss Elizabeth would provide, and everyone would sit around the blanket, tucked into its warmth and security... Then slowly... One by one... [...]

You’re Not Being Abandoned

To My Younger Self, The one whose wounded... The one whose scarred... The one who's afraid you're going to be unloved the whole of your life... It's okay. I'm working on us. They aren't your parents, they aren't your family, and it's my job to heal your wounds and let you know that.  I'm sorry [...]

Practicing Loving Kindness

I need to remember everyone is struggling with something, and not just struggling, but deeply. With this context, I can (hopefully) reduce some of the internal tension I feel when doing the loving kindness mantra. I feel the positive energy when I send it to all beings, and its strongest at that point; I wish [...]

It’s been forever, but just beginning. Happy New Year 2015

Well, here we are... it's New Years Eve 2014, and what a year it's been. I've gone though a 5k race, a car accident, moving, failing a course for the first time, graduating with my bachelors despite the failure, starting my masters, going to therapy, and bridging the gap between me and my ex. For [...]

Happy New Year: My Year in Review

This is my once-a-year summary to reflect on all that I've been through and the changes that I have made. If I had to summarize my year to one word: progress. I'm so happy to see it, and there's much more to come. For now here's what I have to reflect on: Education: I OFFICIALLY [...]