The Aftermath of Samhain Ceremony

Yesterday I conducted the Samhain ceremony for myself, and wrote some very deep and profound things to be released - old beliefs that are more harmful than helpful, feelings of fear, anger, and self-harm, and levels of resentment and control I have uncovered. As it said, I wrote it down and tore it into long [...]


New Moon Ceremony

Last night I conducted a rebirthing spell; considering all the work I've done towards healing it felt appropriate to do so - acknowledge the insights I've gained, what's being cast aside, and where I'm going.... At least, where I hope I'm going.  Closing the ceremony it was a little difficult to ground my energy, but [...]

On Holy Ground

I remember a ceremony we use to do in the church called on holy ground, and is perhaps the basis of community healing and narritive therapy that I know. There was a blanket Miss Elizabeth would provide, and everyone would sit around the blanket, tucked into its warmth and security... Then slowly... One by one... [...]

The Context of Intimacy

I feel like a manipulative asshole! I wasn't trying to BE manipulative, I was just blind to what was going on... Where I have a hard time understanding intimacy apparently, I have to wonder to what degree it exists outside the realms of a romantic relationship - was I asking for too much, or is [...]

I Love You, and I am Listening

Place one hand over your heart, and the other over your stomach. Breathe deeply for just a minute, and say to yourself "I love you, and I am listening". What was the impact? I was doing a guided meditation and was promoted to do this, noticing my internal reactions... It was strange to me. A [...]

You’re Not Being Abandoned

To My Younger Self, The one whose wounded... The one whose scarred... The one who's afraid you're going to be unloved the whole of your life... It's okay. I'm working on us. They aren't your parents, they aren't your family, and it's my job to heal your wounds and let you know that.  I'm sorry [...]

Practicing Loving Kindness

I need to remember everyone is struggling with something, and not just struggling, but deeply. With this context, I can (hopefully) reduce some of the internal tension I feel when doing the loving kindness mantra. I feel the positive energy when I send it to all beings, and its strongest at that point; I wish [...]

A Slave to Control

I'm either an enabler who can't say anything or a control freak for opening my mouth - that's how I feel. I feel trapped over the stupidest shit, and in the end I know it's because I use control to prevent anger outbursts because that's the defective wall I hide behind versus saying I'm vulnerable, [...]

The Tide of Eternity

This is nice... Really nice. It's almost feels like lying in a river at the dead of night, naked, and simply gazing at the stars... The universe is imaged as a reflection in the water, and I am in the middle in serenity. After an hour or so of meditation, I'm at peace... I love [...]

When Spirituality was Born into Being

Its no secret that I was a seventh-day Adventist for much of my development in my teen years. It's was more than a religion, it was a culture that had it's own reality... Spiritual sensations, emotions, and connections that I've genuinely missed as a result of having been in that community and left are suddenly [...]