Alone in a Coffee Shop

I'm surprised, geniunley shocked that I have alone time before work to write this morning. Having a car back has been bliss, and I've bought so many reading materials it's gonna take a while to get through them all - from 365 ways to raise your vibration, to the artists ways creativity cards & her [...]

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Blending Experiences

Yesterday I did the Hecates ceremony and a tarot reading with a few simple questions with powerful results. Before the Hecates ceremony I caught myself in a religious state I hadn't experienced in a long time... But the emotion was strong and intense. Whenever I prayed to God as a Seventh-day Adventist Id always end [...]

Normality is Strange

The past few days have been rather bland since thanksgiving, and I like it. Stranger than that is that the house feels "back to normal" in a sense. Kylie wanted to do a Sherlock marathon on Netflix, so I offered to bring my tv and stuff downstairs. About 4 hours in she calls it a [...]

Reward Over Fear

At first I was hesitant about it... "Taking Syrus for a run probably isn't a good idea; he's a toe walker after all, and I don't know what the impact on his feet would be." Then I started running back and forth between my bedroom and the hallway like I use too when I did [...]

Who Do I Want To Be

Who do I want to be? The truth is I thought I had it all figured out... Mapped, planned, carefully considered based on "who I am", but I don't know who I am anymore, and as a result, I'm uncertain of who I want to be. I've lost my drive for schooling, and with so [...]

Synonymous

Love is terrifying. In one of those free-association activities in the love yourself heal your life workbook, I recognized my own apprehension to answer certain sections... They have one on men, women, sex, money... Then love. I did the one on love and out of nowhere I donged on me... love is terrifying. Then the [...]

The Tide of Eternity

This is nice... Really nice. It's almost feels like lying in a river at the dead of night, naked, and simply gazing at the stars... The universe is imaged as a reflection in the water, and I am in the middle in serenity. After an hour or so of meditation, I'm at peace... I love [...]

My Dearest Nightmare

Day 1 To My Dearest Love, Forgive me if I don't know where to begin - I'm afraid my thoughts and feelings fall and scatter before me like a summer rain; I welcome and observe with a sense of melancholy what lays before me, but try as I might, I cannot catch them all. I [...]

I hate my life

Please forgive the stero-typical teenage drama-feasting title, but I have been plagued by anxiety, stress, depression, and tears, and I was hoping it was PMS but it's not. It's life. I can't stand it. 1) I hate being a single mother Let me make it known that I don't hate being a mom. I love [...]