Toxic Masculinity

Why it matters that my son is raised by a feminist Toxic Masculinity Produces Lonliness Also, pics from the women's march I went to in portsmouth


Addiction, blogs, and the mental element

Tired beyond belief in mind, body, and soul, I turn to my primitive mind engaging in old fantasies of the past that I entertained in my youth, consumed by lust, and the need to be loved. There's something about the emotional brain that's amazing and corruptive when left unchecked, but I find it essential at [...]

Community Status

It's amazing to walk into work and everyone is all "Hey, Carol!" "Carol, how's it going?" "Morning Carol! We still up for game night?" Even customers are all "how did you get into work? You need a ride home? How's Syrus doing?" Slowly, but surely, community is working its way into my life, and I [...]

The Smallest Connection

To be human is to grieve, because if we grieve we are in touch with the swelling of emotions that make us so complex, the glue that permanently connects the puzzle pieces and fragments that make us human compared to the clinical diagnosis that seeks to pull us to pieces for fragmented labels of understanding. [...]

The Chasm Exands

Working out of the "love yourself, heal your life" workbook, I feel that chasm again... The expanding of my chest to create space, but the more I feel that space the more I recognize what currently fills that space, and the longing that it calls for. It calls for me to love myself, but also [...]

The Tide of Eternity

This is nice... Really nice. It's almost feels like lying in a river at the dead of night, naked, and simply gazing at the stars... The universe is imaged as a reflection in the water, and I am in the middle in serenity. After an hour or so of meditation, I'm at peace... I love [...]

Random Thoughts

  BBBLLLOOOOGGGGIIIINNNGGGG I promised myself I'd start a new routine. For the life of me I could not sleep well :-/ I was up at 1:45, then 3ish, then 5:45, then my alarms went off at about 6:40. I tried to sleep for an extra 20, but was up 10 minutes later making my sons [...]

Role Playing Adventurer

My brother comes home from Florida as surprise. He's moving back in and I wonder why? "I thought you were happier down there." "It was nice" he says, "but it didn't work out as I'd hoped." I asked how dad was taking it, and he said he's a little upset, but he understands. It just didn't work [...]