Toxic Masculinity

Why it matters that my son is raised by a feminist Toxic Masculinity Produces Lonliness Also, pics from the women's march I went to in portsmouth


Addiction, blogs, and the mental element

Tired beyond belief in mind, body, and soul, I turn to my primitive mind engaging in old fantasies of the past that I entertained in my youth, consumed by lust, and the need to be loved. There's something about the emotional brain that's amazing and corruptive when left unchecked, but I find it essential at [...]

Differentiating the Demon from the Man (The Succubi Addiction & Codependency Factor)

Today I've had a veil over my eyes - the hypnotic melodia of my sex drive wanting to rear it's tiny little head out, but instead hijacking my imagination and lulling me back to the fantasy of a man I thought I once knew and loved. This is the experience of addiction, chasing the next fantasy [...]

Adventures in EMDR Part 1: The Athame turned on it’s end

I'm drawn to think of Pia Mellody and love addiction.... the process of overusing imagination as a dream world for escape. I'm amazed in truth that Keri was able to take what I thought was a weapon of destruction and use it as a tool of healing so suddenly. The Athame, the magical sword on [...]

Blending Experiences

Yesterday I did the Hecates ceremony and a tarot reading with a few simple questions with powerful results. Before the Hecates ceremony I caught myself in a religious state I hadn't experienced in a long time... But the emotion was strong and intense. Whenever I prayed to God as a Seventh-day Adventist Id always end [...]

Reward Over Fear

At first I was hesitant about it... "Taking Syrus for a run probably isn't a good idea; he's a toe walker after all, and I don't know what the impact on his feet would be." Then I started running back and forth between my bedroom and the hallway like I use too when I did [...]

On Spirituality & Self

I suppose the need for control comes from the inability to forgive... If I could forgive, I wouldn't need to have so many walls up... What would it look like to forgive? What would it look like to forgive myself? Forgiveness and "letting go" go hand-in-hand... I don't know what I'm doing or how to [...]

The Aftermath of Samhain Ceremony

Yesterday I conducted the Samhain ceremony for myself, and wrote some very deep and profound things to be released - old beliefs that are more harmful than helpful, feelings of fear, anger, and self-harm, and levels of resentment and control I have uncovered. As it said, I wrote it down and tore it into long [...]


Love is terrifying. In one of those free-association activities in the love yourself heal your life workbook, I recognized my own apprehension to answer certain sections... They have one on men, women, sex, money... Then love. I did the one on love and out of nowhere I donged on me... love is terrifying. Then the [...]

I Love You, and I am Listening

Place one hand over your heart, and the other over your stomach. Breathe deeply for just a minute, and say to yourself "I love you, and I am listening". What was the impact? I was doing a guided meditation and was promoted to do this, noticing my internal reactions... It was strange to me. A [...]