Tired beyond belief in mind, body, and soul, I turn to my primitive mind engaging in old fantasies of the past that I entertained in my youth, consumed by lust, and the need to be loved. There's something about the emotional brain that's amazing and corruptive when left unchecked, but I find it essential at [...]
I'm drawn to think of Pia Mellody and love addiction.... the process of overusing imagination as a dream world for escape. I'm amazed in truth that Keri was able to take what I thought was a weapon of destruction and use it as a tool of healing so suddenly. The Athame, the magical sword on [...]
I did my first ever Tarot reading today, and it was amazing! I asked what the year had in store for me based on the areas the spread provides, and after a good deal of time spent reading the meaning of the cards and interpreting them, this was what I had. Aries: Persona - The [...]
I feel like a manipulative asshole! I wasn't trying to BE manipulative, I was just blind to what was going on... Where I have a hard time understanding intimacy apparently, I have to wonder to what degree it exists outside the realms of a romantic relationship - was I asking for too much, or is [...]
For the past two days I've had so much to say... so much I want to say. The problem was A) I get a whole blog typed and it doesn't save before it gets lost (thanks wordpress) or I just didn't have the time. Yesterday I was so mad.... so mad. The controlling fragment of [...]
I'm hanging out with a coworker and her boyfriend, when I accidentally cause a fight to erupt by giving him a hug. >.>' I feel horrible, like I'm some kind player caught cheating (though I would assume players wouldn't feel bad - ever). I apologize, but before I can even get the words out of [...]
I still miss him. I haven't seen him in years, but I'd give anything just to cross path with him again - if only to say hi. Fuck my life.
Hey guys, So I was looking through some old documents on my computer trying to find a phone number, when I had totally forgotten I had a dream folder I started in May, prior to starting this blog. I figured I share them with you. I dont remember the one with my ex, but I [...]