I’d dream of you again

For the first time in ages I found myself dreaming of a forlorn friendship of ages past with no chance of redemption. I don't know why my dreams would draw me back to him, but it was comforting to see him again. Inevitably he stopped talking to me at the end, and I remember holding [...]

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My Second Podcast

I wish I could snag the first podcast off the other app, but it won't let me. I switched too Podbean because it allows for more talk time, easier layout, and it's designed well. From now on my podcast will be through here. My second one was more of a spur of the moment thing [...]

Addiction, blogs, and the mental element

Tired beyond belief in mind, body, and soul, I turn to my primitive mind engaging in old fantasies of the past that I entertained in my youth, consumed by lust, and the need to be loved. There's something about the emotional brain that's amazing and corruptive when left unchecked, but I find it essential at [...]

Adventures in EMDR Part 1: The Athame turned on it’s end

I'm drawn to think of Pia Mellody and love addiction.... the process of overusing imagination as a dream world for escape. I'm amazed in truth that Keri was able to take what I thought was a weapon of destruction and use it as a tool of healing so suddenly. The Athame, the magical sword on [...]

My 2017 Tarot Spread

I did my first ever Tarot reading today, and it was amazing! I asked what the year had in store for me based on the areas the spread provides, and after a good deal of time spent reading the meaning of the cards and interpreting them, this was what I had. Aries: Persona - The [...]

The Context of Intimacy

I feel like a manipulative asshole! I wasn't trying to BE manipulative, I was just blind to what was going on... Where I have a hard time understanding intimacy apparently, I have to wonder to what degree it exists outside the realms of a romantic relationship - was I asking for too much, or is [...]

Speak

For the past two days I've had so much to say... so much I want to say. The problem was A) I get a whole blog typed and it doesn't save before it gets lost (thanks wordpress) or I just didn't have the time. Yesterday I was so mad.... so mad. The controlling fragment of [...]

Rattled & Dumb

 I'm hanging out with a coworker and her boyfriend, when I accidentally cause a fight to erupt by giving him a hug. >.>' I feel horrible, like I'm some kind player caught cheating (though I would assume players wouldn't feel bad - ever). I apologize, but before I can even get the words out of [...]

Digging in my Closet (Dreams from May)

Hey guys, So I was looking through some old documents on my computer trying to find a phone number, when I had totally forgotten I had a dream folder I started in May, prior to starting this blog. I figured I share them with you. I dont remember the one with my ex, but I [...]